Romans 8:25

"but if we hope for what we do not yet have,
we wait for it patiently
- ROMANS 8:25"

Happiness is not equal to Joy.

I know I have already posted this song, but it's one of my favorites that I get something new out of everytime...

Now there is a joy inside I can't contain,
But even perfect days can end in rain
and though it's pouring down,
I see you though the clouds
shining on my face.

Circumstances.

"People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You"

- Bring the Rain by Mercy Me

Just a follow up of what I talked about on Wednesday Night, I believe everything happenes for a reason, so I don't think circumstances should change who I am forever in Christ. The circumstances in my life could have completely altered my life and the way I live it, but I follow and trust through all the circumstances, If trials are how I gain a better and more understanding relationship with Christ then bring on the rain.

Being Silent, and Knowing he is God.

I don't think I have ever been more excited to read a book in my whole entire life!!! I finished chapter 5 of Integrity by Dr. Henry Cloud... Chapter 6 is Building Trust Through Vulnerability... sounds like this could be a rough chapter for me....

If His Grace was an Ocean, We're all sinking... Oh How He Loves Us.

He is jealous for me....

Trust

"When thinking of what the word "trust" actually means: To trust means to be carelss ...
It means that you do not have to worry about how to "take care" of yourself with that person, because he is going to be worried about that too. It means that you do not have to "guard" yourself with her, because she is to be concerned with what is good for you and what is not good for you. You do not have to "watch your back" with him, because he is going to be watching it for you." - Dr. Henry Cloud Integrity

Making my life something so beautiful.

Album: My Paper Heart
Artist: Francesca Battistelli

Don’t know how it is You looked at me
And saw the person that I could be
Awakening my heart
Breaking through the dark
Suddenly Your grace

Like sunlight burning at midnight
Making my life something so
Beautiful, beautiful
Mercy reaching to save me
All that I need
You are so
Beautiful, beautiful

Now there’s a joy inside I can’t contain
But even perfect days can end in rain
And though it’s pouring down
I see You through the clouds
Shining on my face

I have come undone
But I have just begun
Changing by Your grace

Freak Out!

Okay so today I am reading in my book Integrity, and I have never written so many notes and underlined so much. This has given me so much to think about... I'll update later on what I have figured out.

Addiction.

A friend and I were talking about things that he was addicted to the other day, during this conversation I said, after some light thinking, that I was most certainly not addicted to anything. LIES, FIBS, UNTRUTH!!! Okay so no I didn't really lie or not intentionally...But I am most certainly addicted to things, for example:

Sound - I normally get into my car turn the radio on, walk into a room turn a TV on, sit at my computer with my ear buds in... I am constantly surrounding myself with noise.

Not that is a terrible thing necessarily but what I am not addicted to scares me more. Where was God any of this? I am not addicted to praying, or having quite time him. I enjoy those things but it doesn't completely wreck my day if I don't do those things until sitting in silence would...

"Be silent, and know that I am God."

-Psalm 46 : 10

I was MIA due to...

After five days, in an un-airconditioned cabin, in a 102 degree weather, with 8 girls, several mosqitoe bites, a sunburn or two - I survived Kids Camp 2010. Although, my flip flops did not. I had to throw them away, after all that walking and bug mashing they were beyond worn out.

Everything Glorious By David Crowder Gospel Music Lyrics

The day is brighter here with You
The night is lighter than it's hue
Would lead me to believe
Which leads me to believe

You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
What does that make me?

My eyes are small but they have seen
the beauty of enormous things
Which leads me to believe
there's light enough to see that

You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours

From glory to glory
You are glorious You are glorious
From glory to glory
You are glorious. You are glorious
Which leads me to believe
why I can believe that

You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours

From glory to glory From glory to glory
You are glorious. You are glorious.
You are glorious. You are glorious.

Have you ever taken time to stop and actually listen to the words of a song? I did, this Sunday we sang this song and normally I get stuck on the part "what does that make me?" but this Sunday I stopped and reflected on "and I am yours" WOW, what a powerful line. I don't know how I have contiuenely missed that before. How amazing is it that we belong to God and that he wants us no matter what, that he made everything glorious and that we are his !

I forgot how much I enjoy reading. I have realized this after spending a few weeks here at church interning I have spent more time reading and doing my devo's in the last few weeks then I have in the last few months.

I say all that to simply say "I love organized time". Helps me accomplish so much more with my day and the things I need to get done, actually get done.

Can you hear me now? Good.

My devo yesterday and today was over listening. Great topic, I do that well I thought in my head before I actually began reading. Barely got passed the first paragraph before I thought, "wow, I stink at listening" there went all my pride. Then later, if it wasn't enough just to think about how much of a horrible listener I am God was there proved to me, that I wasn't a good listener at all. I made someone repeat themselves 3 times (now they all say the 3rd time is a charm, but I mean seriously come on) before I actually took the time to STOP thinking about whatever I was thinking about and actually listen to what they were saying. Now I'd really like to put the blame on the other person and say something like "well if they would have spoke up I could have heard them" or " if they wouldn't have stammered", But in all reality it was my fault I was thinking of 100 other things other than what that person was saying.

Todays lesson was over listening to God, which lets be honest if I am having trouble listening to audible voices I am probably not listening to God like I should either. I think this all goes back to what I talked about in my last post, I am too busy, I have made myself too busy and unable to do everything well. So I am stopping so I can hear you, and most importantly hear God.



"Be still & know I am God"
- PSALM 46:10

With L0ve,
Audra

Sorry for being absent, it's really no way to start off a blog! A wonderful combination of a sinus infection, asthma flair up, upper respiratory infection, and pleurisy was enough to take me out for a little over a week. I am feeling much better now and ready to tackle this blog!



I am reading: Integrity by Dr. Henry Cloud, I think I am really going to like this book, I having to read it chapter by chapter, but already the first chapter has given me a ton to think about...In the book it points out that we never really learn certain things in school like how to lose, but we learn to find X and other things that most of us once out of high school will never use again but we all lose, we all need to learn and understand how to handle situations better.



I am thinking about: sticking up for myself, I need to start saying "no" more often, I was thinking about it while I was sick. The week before I got sick I was trying to be in a hundred different places at once. I feel like the things I did that week were simply just okay I was trying to take on too much at once, when I really should have been doing a few things at 100% of my ability. I was so super busy that I didn't have time for myself let alone God. I firmly believe that becoming too busy is a sin.



I am dreaming & wishing at: doing things better.

Getting Started

Hi Everyone,

This is my blog about, well, anything going on in my life. My goal is to post 3 times a week about what I am reading, learning, and experiencing. I'd love to read your comments and feedback too!

With Love - Audra